Friday, March 13, 200910:57 PM
■ Friday,13 March 2009
My grandpa is passed away. So tomorrow have to back kampung. I cant go langkawi oredy. Sad...dunno is gud or bad...dis trip im been waitin for so long...im so anxious...but now...they tell me...the trip is canceled...lolx...i keep mention i will out during dis holiday...but finally...i din go...im busy too. LOLx...however die is the best way for my grandpa. Dis is bcoz he is suffering...no any ideas can help him...the doctor said he dunno wan to give him eat which medicine...which of it...will let him worse...So...he juz suffering.....then now he is stop to suffer...i think that if i stand in front of him ...i wnt have any feelings....but...not...i still have senses...however we r not close...when i see him, he cant say anythings...whole of his body cant move...just his eyes ball can move around...so...imagine...how painful he has been suffered...is reali pityful ....my tears welled up in my eyes....but it din drop....Hehe...LIFE IS SHORT...nobody can excape death....even me...so...now...we have to take care of our body....in order to live longer...and can enjoy our life....er...my exam is coming soon...but i look like so relaxin...lolx...im not...im mentally suffer...cant slp properly...just im overtired...i can slp well....i hate...i wan slp...i wan to be slp princess....if im a princess...then how gud is it....i wnt worry about money...i wnt worry about anythings...Hahax...is just a fairy-tale....if i din rmb wrongly...im cryin at sch on thursday...hahax...how embarassed i did...but i cant control...my tears welled up in my eyes...then drop ...COZ OF CZ' FAULT...he rake up my WOUNDS....then....im still haven put down those thingys...then...im so moodless whole day....ivan is the victim...he is scolded by me...Hahax...who call him wan to touch my book...he spoilt it...