Sunday, March 08, 200910:54 PM
■ Sunday,8 March 2009
Tomorrow hav to go pg...i hav to get along wif my bro to Kuala Kurau whr my grandparents live. My grandpa is stayin hospital now...dunno wad's wrong wif him...my parents say is hard for him to pass dis time....so..we muz be prepared...dunno y...i din feel sad till i wan to cry for them...mayb im not close wif them...we r not oweys togther...they din reali care for us...mean my family...they abandon us. They r not care us...my eldest bro is luckier...they care of my bro...coz when he is small...he stayed wif them...if tomorrow i go ....then i will miss my chemis tt...lolx...i dun wn to miss...coz im been miss numerous time coz of busy my stuff...haiz...so...depends on tomorrow...how it will be...then...i make the decision at the last minutes...hehe...dis is my attitude...oweys prepare at last minutes...and oweys scolded by my beloved parents...Hahax...but...my mumv is havin the same attitude wif me....so..cant blame on me...we hav the same germs...Hahax...exam is nearer...im not reali prepare yet...my march holiday will be spent wif my couz...my sg couz will back on 16 march...so...i dun hav time to do revision during march holiday...but now i still hav many subj din revision yet...lolx...how can...im reali worryin my exam...but...im lazy...lolx...i hate it....y ....im becum so lazy...we must noe a point that LAZY Is HUMAN NATURAL PERSONALITY...hahax...andrew ask me i and CZ together....lolx...however we r close.....but dun think as ur way...today ivan is beggin me to help him to do news report...but i reject him firmly...i say for ur own good..actually im lazy...Hahax...i been said....i juz help him last time only...coz...he oweys depends on frenz...i feel FRENz dis word is darted back on me ....Hahax...k...since the things happened...i noe i cant to be so kindness...coz it will let others not to value u....they would think...when i nid u...then find u...when u r not necessary for them...they will ABANDON u....however u been helpin them so much time,they oso dunno how to value u...juz think u r the passer-by...stranger....the things reali teach me a lesson...i noe i muz change myself...change to be not so KINDNESS...coz...when u r so SHUI BIAN...they will not reali care of u...not reali wan try to understand u...coz...u dun hav ur own view...u juz follow them...they feel u r not imp...dis is wad i tell ivan today...so ...conclussion...i dun wan be so kindness...hahax...but finally i help him...coz...when ppl is beggin me with non-stop...my stone will start to melt...dis is my WEAKNESS...how i wan to change it....i nid sum times...i noe...I MUST CHANGE.